| Location | Newcaslte Upon Tyne |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Miscarriage |
| Date of Birth | 03/10/2005 |
| Date of Death | 03/10/2005 |
| Visitors | 1,894 since 21/10/2006 |
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I found out i was pregnant on 26th July my mums birthday. I didnt want a baby but as soon as i found
out i was pregnant i was so happy. I told your Daddy and he was so happy but we decided not to tell
anyone untill i showed because his family wouldnt be very happy as we hadnt been together long and
weren't married.
Me and your daddy went out and spent loads of money buying you the best pram, cot and loads of
clothes. But we didnt mind about the price we were going to have a baby.
I Carried on with my life like normal until i could get a doctors appointment. Dr Bookless confermed
the good news and gave me folic acid to take. I had already booked a holiday and the doctors said it
was fine for me to fly. I went to Mexico on the 19th sept i had the most wonderful time, even though
i didnt drink or smoke it was still great. You also had me off my food it would just come back up
but i didnt mind, i knew it would be worth it in the end.
I came back on the 2nd october and we were fine, your Daddy had missed us so much! But i wanted to
make sure we were fine so i went to the doctors, and he told me everything was ok.
I woke up early on the 3rd oct with terrible pains, i went to the toilet and noticed i was bleeding
really heavy. I didnt know what to do, I rang your daddy and he came over straight away and took us
to the doctors. I couldnt see Dr Bookless as he was on holiday so we had to see a new doctor and he
just sent me away saying i was fine. He told me you were fine and women sometimes bleed through
pregnancy. It wasnt untill a week later i was still bleeding so i went back and this time i seen a
lovley doctor called Dr Watson. He done a pregnancy test on me and it came out possitive, i was so
happy because i thought if i has lost you it would be negative. Until he explained my hormones will
still be thinking im pregnant but im not. NOT PREGNANT! those words took a while to sink in.
I went to the hospital the next day and got a scan, U were gone! By this time my mam new and couldnt
believe i didn't tell her, so she was giving me a hard time but i didn't care! I told your daddy and
he just cried and cried.
You were took away from me so quickly. I miss you so much every day and i sleep with you blanket.
What hurts the most is that i have nothing to remind me of you. i couldnt bury you! You are always
in my heart, my little princess. I didnt even get the chance to see what you looked like or hold
you, but i know you would have been lovely!
I still have all of your clothes! it would hurt me too much to take them back.
It has been a year now and it still hasnt got any easier! God wanted an angel and he took you. A
million tears will never bring you back i know because i have cried them! I hope you are looking
down on me baby happily. I Love you baby and you will always have a place in my heart nobody else
will be able to fill ever!
Do you believe it has been this long, it still feels like yesturday. Mummy and Daddy will miss you
forever baby! You were our first baby together and that means everything, we will always be close
because of that. I love you soo much baby & i always will. You will always be my first born.
Wel it was our 3rd Birthday yesturday, I hope you had a lush time. Me & Daddy got you some of them
angels, it took us ages to make our mind up which one you would like and then there was 2 we loved
so we just got you both. I hope you like them! We are missing you so much the pain hasn't got any
easier at all! Look after us babe, keep us safe. We both love you millions xxx
Love now and always your Mummy & Daddy xxxxx
For our mummy
Once we lived in our mumy's womb,
A place for us to flourish and bloom,
And in that place we felt such love,
Until the day we was called from above,
The angels came and took us away,
Because on Earth we couldn't stay,
But our mother didn't want us to go,
Because she really loved us so,
So we spoke to God and made a deal,
That would help our mummy's heart to heal,
And so God said that we could visit,
At any time, there is no limit,
Now we watch her sit and grieve,
We send her courage to make her brave,
And in the night when she cries,
We're there to wipe her eyes,
And when she sits and thinks of us,
We're there sat on her knee,
When she thinks that no one cares,
We're there stroking her hair,
When it's hard for her to carry on,
We're there to make her strong,
For when you carry love in your heart,
You never really are apart
Night gorgeous!
Night baby girl! I'm missing u so much! I've had Joshua all this weekend he is starting to behave mch better! I have such a strong bond with him he is my everything! I dunno what I would do if I didn't have him! I got dressed up tonight for hannahs party we are finally Ll talking again which I'm very happy about! But somone stole Aunty lauras tabs it was terrible and we all know who it was! How low do some people want to go! They don't deserve to walk the same ground as us! I'm missing u so much pumpkin. I wish u were here so much. I needed u 2 I really did! I love & miss you so much and will forever!
Mammy
xxxx
Morning gorgeous!
Morning baby!
Mammys getting her hair done today! It's about time it's amazing how much my hair grows in three weeks! I've got the hairdresser coming to nans house, she rambles on a bit but is a excellent hair dresser! Ive decided to grow my hair back to what it was when I was pregnant with u! I seen a pic the other day of me on holiday in grease I look lovely. I was skinny & tanned and most of all happy! Thats where I wana be for my wedding! I'm going 2 join the gym and diet to get back skinny!!
Anyway enough about me! Are you ok? I hope ur behaving up there! I hope you don't fight with kaitlyn or luca! Play with them happily darling!
Mammy & Daddy love u sooo much! We are missing you so much it hurts!
We love you princess!
XXXXXXXX
Our Beautiful Baby Girl
The world may never notice
If a Snowdrop doesn't bloom,
Or even pause to wonder
If the petals fall too soon.
But every life that ever forms,
Or ever comes to be,
Touches the world in some small
way for all eternity.
The little one we longed for
Was swiftly here and gone.
But the love that was then planted
Is a light that still shines on.
And though our arms are empty,
Our hearts know what to do.
Every beating of our hearts
Says that we love you.
Always and Forever
Mummy & Daddy love you so much Neo! Hope you have a good day :) We will be thinking of you!
xxxx
Happy Birthday!
I'm so sorry I didnt come on here for your birthday i couldnt handle it! Mammy is still finding it very hard that her baby isnt here anymore! I was thinking of you all day baby!
Mammy loves you very much! You are always on my mind and i hope you had a very happy birtday!
I love and miss you millions!!
Mammy
xxxx
Happy Birthday In Heaven - by Winnie Lovett
"Happy Birthday Neo"
It's sure to be the best one yet,
Though you left us here behind.
Did you think that we'd forget?
Your cake this year, will surely be,
A beauty to behold.
With the icing made of Silver,
And the candles made of Gold.
Yes, your birthday in Heaven,
Will be such a grand affair.
And I know you'll look so lovely,
With a halo in your hair.
The Angels will come from everywhere,
To sing your birthday song.
And I know they'll be so happy,
That you've joined, God's Happy Throng.
No I can't send a card this year,
Or give a gift so fine.
So I'll just send a special prayer,
To that wonderful Daughter of yours.
Special Angel Day - by Carmelle Gross
We do not need a special day
To bring you to our minds.
The days we do not think of you
Are very hard to find.
Each morning when we awake
We know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heartache
As we try to carry on.
Our hearts still ache with sadness
And secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know.
Our thoughts are always with you,
Your place no one can fill.
In life we loved you dearly;
In death we love you still.
There will always be a heartache,
And often a silent tear.
But always a precious memory
Of the days when you were here.
If tears would make a staircase,
And heartaches make a lane,
We'd walk the path to heaven
And bring you home again.
We hold you close within our hearts;
And there you will remain,
To walk with us throughout our lives
Until we meet again.
Our family chain is broken now,
And nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.
Morning baby!
I had a reading this week and found out you would have been a twin! I didnt know! He said I would have had two girls! I would have loved that I always go on about wanting twins! Two little cheeky devils!
I took joshua for his first day at school last week! He looked lovely. I couldnt believe how excited he was! His little face all happy. She doesnt deserve him she cant even take him for his first day at school. It would have been your first day in year big school. You two would have looked lovely! All smart like two little princesses!
I miss you both! I know you cuddle me when im feeling down as i can feel it. The man also said you both sit on my knee!
I love you babies! Ma and Daddy miss and love you so much! Look after us!
Mammy
xxxx
Night baby
Mammy is just coming to talk to you before she goes to bed! I was thinking today of the best and worst days of my life! I must say I have a few best days your daddy asking me to marry him, finding out I was pregnant each time, the day Joshua was born, the day I met your daddy and the day we moved in together! When I die will also be a great day of my life, I know that sounds werid and not many people will understand but I get to see you! The worst day of me has to be each time i've heard them awful words miscarriage or I'm sorry there's no heartbeat! The words a mammy should never ever hear! I miss you baby I really do more than words could explain!
Did you see that Aunty Charlie has booked her wedding? I know your going to be there. Aw baby you would have looked perfect in your little bridesmaid dress! Like a real princess! I'll be thinking of you!
I love you so much baby! Don't ever think I don't or that I'm not thinking of you! You are always on my mind and will be forever! I'll always love you no matter what happens!
Love you millions & millions
Mammy
Xxxxx
I wish it wasnt true,
We didnt want an Angel
We only wanted you,
Youve left behind our broken hearts.
Our thoughts and photos too.
We didnt want a memory
We only wanted you.
They say there is a reason,
They say that time will heal,
But neither time nor reason,
Will change the way we feel.
For no-one knows the heartache,
That lies behind our smiles.
No-one knows how many times,
We have broken down and cried.
We want to tell you something,
So there won't be any doubt,
You're so wonderful to think of,
But so hard to be without.
Neo Mammy & Daddy love you lots and lots. We miss you so much everyday!
xxx
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